November 2, 2005
Why do you hate me? What did I ever do to you? I knelt at my bed tonight and prayed. I prayed that I don't wake up. I close my eyes thankful to be alone and scared for what tomorrow will bring.
November 2, 2006
When will it end? I don't sleep. I don't eat. I cry alone. I don't want anyone to see my pain. I have no friends. I am too embarrassed to tell. I don't understand what I ever did to make you hate me. There is nothing I can do. I get on the bus and sit in the front. I clutch my bookbag and count the minutes until the door opens so that I can get away before you can get to me. I spend my lunch at a table alone and wait for you. I don't have to wait long.
November 7, 2006
I make excuses. My bruises are from dodgeball. I left my books at school. The birthday party (that I was never really invited to) was canceled. Eventually, they will know the truth. I will leave a note. Soon I will close my eyes one last time.
November 15, 2006
A new student started at school today. His name is Josh. He saw me sitting alone at lunch . He asked me if he could eat with me. Finally, I have a friend.
November 21, 2006
Today I got pushed into the lockers. Josh stood up to him!!! And guess what? He backed off. All the kids were laughing at HIM!!!!
December 3, 2006
I got invited to a party tonight!! A real party!! It was the best night of my life.
December 15, 2006
With Josh's encouragement, I talked to my parents tonight. I told them what I have been going through for the past few years. I was so worried that I was going to disappoint them. But guess what? They cried. They said that if Joe even comes near me to tell someone right away. They said that they were sorry!! THEY were sorry! I told them that the past few weeks have been so great. They told me that I matter and I am not alone. I MATTER! They said that bullies are insecure and need to act that way to make them feel worth something. It's not about me. It's about them needing attention. I don't understand. I wish I hadn't waited so long to tell them. I am starting to feel sorry for Joe.
November 10, 2011
Today I was nominated Homecoming King! We now have an anti-bullying policy in school. Joe, (imagine that!) Josh and I lead the campaign. I have learned that everyone matters. There is always someone out there who cares whether they are in the master bedroom upstairs or show up at your lunch table. Find them. Speak up. Make a difference.
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